Celebrating Survival and Thriving

Here we are, at the brink of summer 2024, celebrating the elixir of times, surviving and thriving. The sun’s warmth mirrors the warmth in my heart as I look back on the past year. It has been an immense growth and transformation; each day felt like a victory. Surviving breast cancer has given me a newfound appreciation for life, and I’m determined to make the most of every moment.

A Year of Transformation

My last year was a roller-coaster, a year that scorched me, transformed my physicality, and triggered daily battles with depression and hot flashes. The journey began with a startling discovery during a Valentine’s Day ‘Hers & Hers’ mammogram, which revealed a tumor. From that moment, my life was a whirlwind of biopsy, MRI, mastectomy, radiation, and hormone therapy. Each step tested my strength and resilience, pushing me to new limits and teaching me invaluable lessons about perseverance and self-care.

The Diagnosis and Treatment

A tumor was found from Valentine’s Day ‘Hers & Hers’ mammograms. It started a whirlwind of tumor biopsy, MRI, mastectomy, sentinel node biopsy, radiation, and then hormone therapy ordered for the next 10 years by my oncologist. 2023 was a gross year on my calendar as I became a breast cancer survivor. The diagnosis was a shock, and the subsequent treatments were grueling. But each procedure brought me closer to recovery. The support from my medical teams at the University of Michigan Rogel Cancer Center and Bronson Department of Radiation and my loved ones was instrumental in helping me navigate this challenging period. The treatments, though harsh, were life-saving, and I emerged from them with a renewed sense of purpose.

Finding the Silver Lining

The funny thing is I am in the prime of my life, and yet, with fatigue dripping down my bones, there are days when I feel stuck in a geriatric time loop. But guess what? Every dark cloud has a silver lining, and my silver lining came in hues of pink. This journey, while incredibly tough, has also been enlightening. I’ve learned to appreciate life’s small joys, find beauty in the mundane, and embrace the love and support around me. The challenges have made me stronger, more resilient, and more compassionate towards myself and others.

Embracing Change and Letting Go

Armed with a fresh perspective and a heart full of determination, I bid adieu to old habits. I quit smoking, traded small talk for deep conversations, and stopped living in the perennial fear of what others perceive of me. It was as if the intense journey melted away my facade, letting the real, robust Amy shine through. In ironic twists and turns of life, I can say that breast cancer jolted me awake, nudging me to live my life honestly. This period of self-discovery has been liberating, allowing me to focus on what truly matters and cultivate more profound, meaningful relationships.

A Journey of Self-Discovery

Looking back, I feel a unique sense of relief, knowing that the fierce rounds of treatment are now a part of the past. Yet, a befuddling question loops in my mind—what the hell just happened? I feel like I was caught in a tempest, spat out, and redefined. The intensity of the past year has reshaped my understanding of strength and vulnerability. Each challenge has taught me to embrace my authentic self and face life’s uncertainties with courage and grace.

The Blend of Fatigue and Hope

Now, every new day greets me with a weirdly comforting blend of fatigue and hope. I am confronted with a startling truth daily – I am one of the fortunate ones. Despite the lingering fatigue, an underlying sense of hope propels me forward. This duality keeps me grounded, reminding me of my progress and future possibilities. It is a delicate balance that has taught me to cherish every moment and find joy in the journey.

Realizing the Warrior Spirit

I’ve realized that not every story gets a happy middle; some journeys end too quickly, leaving behind a precious legacy. As I hinge towards an unwritten future, my heart acknowledges the warrior spirit in every cancer patient out there. The courage and resilience of fellow survivors inspire me daily. Our collective experiences form a tapestry of strength, hope, and solidarity. We are warriors, each fighting our battles, yet united by our shared journey. This realization has been a source of immense strength, helping me to face each day with determination and optimism.

Adversity and Relationships

Isn’t it true that adversity tests relationships in ways unimaginable? This intense cancer journey did precisely that. I discovered the many faces of love and friendship, and sadly, I was left disappointed where I thought I had the deepest roots. But such is life, and it continues to unfold in myriad hues. The past year’s challenges have revealed the true nature of my relationships. Some have blossomed, providing unwavering support and love, while others have withered, unable to withstand the test of adversity. These experiences have taught me to value genuine connections.

Moving Forward with Strength

Alright, my fellow pink warriors. We’ve mapped another part of my journey together today. This ride isn’t always smooth but look at us, taking it one trailblazer turn at a time. Each step forward is a testament to our strength and resilience. We face challenges head-on, supporting one another along the way. Our shared experiences create a powerful bond, and we continue to move forward, one day at a time. Let’s embrace the journey with open hearts and unwavering courage.

A Message of Hope and Resilience

To every one of you reading my musings, sending love my way, or fighting your own battles, I hope you hold your courage close. You’re stronger than you know. Here’s wishing you endless strength and all the positivity in the world. Stay hopeful, stay resilient, and remember—each new day is a backdrop for a beautiful tomorrow. Let’s continue to inspire and uplift one another, creating a community of support and love.

Until Next Time

Can’t wait to catch up with all of you next time. Until then, take care. Each day, we grow stronger, more resilient, and more connected. Let’s cherish these moments, supporting one another through every twist and turn.

With warmth and solidarity,
Amy